Tuesday, June 12, 2007

Why Doug didn't call.. and WHY IT'S A GOOD THING

Another pissy, dull day. Better than being dead tho....
Doug didn't call I found out, because they guy I met with him up at the bar on Doug's birthday,
Tim, died. He called me yesterday, all broken up and teary, to let me know that Tim had shot himself in the head and was dead. Sad. Things were really shitty for that guy, I was saying
how much Tim was complaining that night, and I didn't want to go back the night time he
invited me because I didn't want to hear Tims bitching again...here it was something he
needed to do. he needed to vent and for someone to care. Maybe not me,
I barely knew the guy, but maybe for someone not to mask his problems in alcohol,
but maybe to show him a better way to move on. he must not have found a better way
and decided that nothing was good for him here anymore. he supposedly drank
3 bottles of booze, say on the edge of him bed at his parnets home
(who lives in Florida now I guess) and shot himself in the head.
They found him with his shirt up, and Doug was thinking that maybe
he tried to stop the bleeding because he didn't die right away.
Here is his obituary: http://www.legacy.com/toledoblade/Obituaries.asp?Page=LifeStory&PersonID=19201555
I went to the guestbook to leave an entry and the family deleted it.
It mentioned about Tim reaching out, and being sad and depressed,
and they MUST HAVe thought that it was innapropriate. GEES MAYBE
THEY FEEL GUILTY BECAUSE DOUG SAID NONE OF HIS FAMILY
EVER KEPT IN TOUCH WITH HIM...not his brother Ray or his Mom anyway.
Not so much as he had to sleep in his truck for part of the 7 months
here was back up here in Toledo...(Doug said that Ray wasn't even
going to go to his memorial (yesterday). Ray is one of the guys that my
ex-friend Kath dated a year or so ago. He's a bar-fly too. )
Seven months ago, Tim left Florida where he lived, after he left his wife
whom he caught fooling around on him after 9 years of marriage,
and who he told me, wouldn't let hm see the kids.
I'm not saying that none of it was his fault, I only wish I would have
listened a little bit more instead of not wanting to be around him
because he was so negative. I am still pretty pissed about the family
deleting my entry, so I wrote another one.
http://www.legacy.com/toledoblade/GB/GuestbookView.aspx?
PersonId=19201555
If you knew Tim laBounty - above, is the link to the condolences book.
I pray that Tim did not feel any pain-he'd had quite a bit before that
...May God rest his soul.


And here is just a forward I recieved about WHAT EVERY WOMAN SHOULD HAVE;
I kinda liked it...
WELL SHIT - I CAN'T GET THAT THING TO POST SO
SINCE I LIKED THIS BETTER I'm POSTING IT INSTEAD. DAMMIT.

HOPE YOUR MOOD IS BETTER THAN MINE.
I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE SPRING SHIT ON ME for the
NEXT DAY when I ALREADY HAVE PLANS.
THAT'S WHY ELSE I AM IN A SHITTY MOOD.
I GET A CALL AT 9:30 PM TONITE...ready to go to bed..."I'll be there tomorrow morning"
I HAVE TO GET MY DRYER FIXED WHEN I GET THE OFFER FROM SOMEONE. I REFUSE TO CHANGE IT.
SO SORRY- YOU'LL JUST HAVE TO WAIT OUT THERE TILL
I'M FREE FOR ME TO CALL YOU BACK AND GO OUT AND MEET YOU.
I CANNOT BELIEVE I COULDN'T GET A LITTLE MORE NOTICE
THAN 9:30, THE NIGHT BEFORE!!
ANYWAY, Y'ALL HAVE A NICE WEEKEND.
TTR
:P

UPDATE:
STILL NOT CALLING AND I AM GLAD.
HE IS WITH SOMEONE AND WE WILL NOT EVER MAKE IT AND THAT'S A PROVEN FACT. WE HAVE GOTTEN ALONG SO MUCH BETTER AS FRIENDS. I GUESS I JUST ENJOYED GETTING THE OCCASIONAL "GUY" PHONE CALL NOW AND THEN (I DON'T WISH TO BE PHONED EVERY SINGLE DAY AND TALK FOR AN HOUR THO - NOTE TO NEW-BUT-GONE-DOUG..)
BESIDES, WINTER IS COMING AND MY DEPRESSION IS SETTLING IN ALREADY - HARD.


I have spoken to him about athousand times since the date this was originally typed.. Most of the time he was driunk. At first i didn't mind. Then the less i began to drink, the more his drunk-calls annoyed me. The last time we spoke THIS TIME, he got mad because he "loaned" me 20 dollars to buy food, (he owes me aver 200.00 from when he lived with me for a year and i bought all his Christmas gifts!) and i said something to him about him calling and bigging me for the money back - which HE DID NOT - he kept calling to "see if the Fergie CD he asked me to burn was done yet". I know his sly calls. I am not ignorant to Doug's ways any longer...
This was taken in 2003. He has aged, like all of us.
He now has a HUGE beer gut, and a buzz cut haircut. But he still gets a good tan.
UPDATE AGAIN: 06-12-07: I broke down and called and left a voice mail message for him today. I hope he calls me back...

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