Tuesday, February 15, 2005

Cold and Warm, East Side Pride and Winter Blues

The weather, my love life, my finances. I am a true East Toledoan.I suppose you COULD say all I do is bitch, but how else would I even recognise that things need to change or somehow be made different by myself, OR seen differently through my eyes -
The weather, my love life, my finances. I am a true East Toledoan.
I suppose you COULD say all I do is bitch, but how else would I even recognise that things need to change or somehow be made different by myself, OR seen differently through my eyes - if I did not mention them out loud??
DOES ANYONE AGREE WITH ME OUT THERE?
I'm TIRED OF BEING TOLD ALL I DO IS BITCH. I am one of the most positive persons you will ever meet. I love my life (I don't always say it though) I love waking up every day, I love the weather WHEN IT'S WARM, I am so thankful for my man - on our good days, I am so thankful for EVERYTHING!
What does being an East Toledoan have to do with it??
Well, most of us in this neighborhood, anyway, are in the same income bracket. We make enough to pay most of the bills, but are stuck at home all winter because we can't afford to do anything else. That's why many of us walk around here. Either the car is broken down, or you can't pay the insurance this month for some reason, or you can't afford the gas for anything except for the "essentials".
Many of us single women, attractive East Toledo women I might add, keep getting stuck with these LOSER, ALCOHOLIC MEN, who are someone else's leftovers, either don't want to work, or do work but don''t make enough money to move out of Mommy's house, or spend too much on partyin' or beer to be able to afford rent, let alone buy something like a VALENTINES GIFT for their loved ones. ...us beautiful East Toledo Women. And yet, we continue to put up with it. Because that is all that is available to us here on the East Side. We don't make much money ourselves! Hell, some East Toledo women are drug addicted to be able to tolerate this lifestyle day after day after day. We don't go places to meet executives or doctor's (like many of our mother's dreamed for us), we are basically country women at best, who like to cook, keep clean houses, take care of our men... "servasa", you know, and we have to settle for, basically, who will settle FOR US!
Personally, I am thankful to have this - NO - REALLY I AM!- I am thankful to live where I live, to be living at all, and to have the man that I have for NOW - I pray to God our East Side Pride holds out and things get better. Our "East Side Motto". Things can ONLY get better. I need to make some changes, I know that.
But then everything changes as soon as Spring weather hits, and all is well with the world again.
This is ALL winter-blues, you know. I refuse to believe it is totally East Side mentality.